With end of year speeding up to meet me, time seems to fly by at an accelerated rate, that makes me realize just how much time I let go by in idle things. It’s not that I’ve been totally unproductive but more like I’ve been idle in things a bit more geared towards moving on in life. I’ve been giving the excuse that I don’t want to tie myself down here and want to move to Canada, but even the steps towards that goal have been slow in coming.

I’ve been getting very hyped up by working for petsites and with a few friends are outlining possible ideas for our own. It’s a big undertaking but if it succeeds I could be that much closer to becoming independent and working for what I like to do the most. Right now I’m active at a fansite called Leopets, which isn’t paid, thus there isn’t much to be gained in financial terms. But… I see it as a playground for development for when we move on to our own, 100% original site. Wish me luck there, I’d really like to see it succeed, specially since I would be expanding the work I’ve put into the Niflheim/Valhalla worlds.

My countdown for end of year and the Start of my Life is two weeks.

Wish me luck!

Josh, today I can´t sleep, can´t rrite, and nidear talk. But I stil have my eyes to sea and know That I love You and miss you so much that i cant go to the bathroom and po. You are my Luz my star. Rite me a story to SAVE my brother, he neads a way tu ES CA PE Your litel sister stefy.zzzzZZZZ Deja tu mail Juegas Poker o un PokeMon Mas? Puro tramite la caga

I got this mail at 4:30am the other night. I read it in the day of course, and found it kinda funny… I supposed my sister was under the effects of alcohol or something. Of course this mail makes a lot of sense to me now.

Mom took my brother to Argentina a week ago, about. I haven’t known how to blog about it and kept putting it off. My dad called this morning, just an hour ago. He told me my sister had been acting strange since my mom disappeared. She’d been coming up with strange… phrases and humorless black humor. Last night he and his girlfriend went to eat out and it seems my sister finally had too much.

She started talking gibberish. At first they thought she was on drugs and took her to the hospital, where they said she was fine, but she had had a mental breakdown. The took her to a mental institute and if she’s not there now it’s because they had no beds for her. She was sedated and dad spent the whole night awake watching over her.

I feel so guilty for not realizing this was so serious. My sister hasn’t gone to the bathroom since mom disappeared, and she… she was asking me to help her in that mail. And while I did worry and thought of calling dad or someone to check on her I didn’t. I put it off. Now I’m worried sick about her and I can’t stop crying. I know it can’t help her, or that this isn’t my fault. But I still feel guilty. She’s my sister and I’m not there to help her.

What if she’d done something to herself? She’s been mostly alone at my dad’s because he works full time at the observatory. She could have taken her life and … I’m glad she didn’t. I guess we share that in common. We take other routes to try and cope with stuff. But I don’t want my little sister to go crazy.

This is all mom’s fault… I can’t believe she’s doing this to her family. And even then, last time I talked to her, she told me if I talked to mom, to tell her she loved her, and that love was an illusion.

Well, for a while now, my family has slowly been breaking apart, those problems you hear about suddenly becoming your problems, and it seems we’ve come to a new Low Point.

Due to a really petty squabble between my sister (wh had been growing more intolerant of my mother the pst few days) and my mother (who’s been increasingly unstable), ended in a fight, pretty much a cat fight, with my sister almost breaking my mom’s face open. She kept calling my mom an ‘asshole’ (hueeón in spanish, it’s the closes I could translate), and mom calling her a bitch in return. I’d rather not go into more detil, bt my mom told her to get out of the house, and she did, after a few more tantrum scenes and throwing books out the window and making a neighbor’s car start sounding it’s alarm.

Once my sister left, mom called the cops to denounce my sister for family abuse, and is now in the hospital with a friend. I stayed behind to care for my 6 year old brother, and two kids about my sister’s age that are staying over.

This is all too much… and frankly I have no idea how to handle it… What am I supposed to do? i know my sister was out of line, and frankly I feel she shouldn’t have called my mother the way she did, nor hit her (even if mom slapped her first, tired of being called an asshole by my sister). Read the rest of this entry »

Well, yes folks, because today May 25th is the official Towel Day. You may be asking, what, in the world, is Towel Day? Well, I think some of you who have read a certain book already know.

You sass that hoopy Douglas Adams? Now there’s a frood who knew where his towel was. You are invited to join your fellow hitchhikers in mourning the loss of the late great one. Join in on towel day to show your appreciation for the humor and insight that Douglas Adams brought to all our lives.

Because, you see, Douglas Adams died in 2001. Yes, that came as somewhat of a shock to me, since I was not aware that this incredible author was no longer producing hilariously profound stories to delight us with. So Towel Day has been created as a memorial for him.

And what do you do on towel day? Well, you carry around your trusty towel all day long, as is expected of any respectable hitchhiker of course! And hopefully take some pictures to share off at the end of the day ^^. Be assured that I will be uploading my own pictures XD