I felt a bit better today after getting my first night of real rest. I slept till lunch time, and then had a day of keeping my mind busy by playing Neopets, checking Moeboard and Deviantart. I did feel sufficiently listless to not get myself to work on any of my homework for tomorrow… and I had three. I’ll have to talk to my teachers and see if I can get extensions. Last week, and this weekend have been hell for me, and I’ll need some adjustment time before I can get back into full swing at university.

I did manage to scan two drawings later in the evening, and I’ve colored half of one of them, maybe I’ll finish it tomorrow after classes… I got distracted before I finished it. It’s taking a lot to make me concentrate on anything where I have to think or be creative.

I still haven’t heard anything from Xae. He was supposed to arrive at New York at 5pm on sunday, but he hasn’t appeared online, or left any message on his webpage. I guess he hasn’t had time, but I still worry… I’ve been hugging the plushie he gave me for my birthday, Latte, a lot. Specially yesterday, I slept with the teddy bear for the first time in months. But starting tomorrow I have to get over all this. Somehow… There’s so many things I have to do, that I have to learn to do things alone, without him there to help and support.

I miss him.

It’s still raining, although about three hours ago it got cold enough for it to turn into snow. I’m not sure if it’ll continue long enough for there to be a small layer of it for tomorrow, but maybe I’m lucky and get a white morning. It’s freezing though, that’s the downside… even with my heater on, I have cold feet and legs while I sit at the computer.

He’s finally left.

The count-down is over, and he’s already on his way away from me. I can’t stop crying. I can’t believe he’s gone, I can’t … I should have gone with him. When I saw him leave, I felt a rushing feeling inside me, my fists clenched, and my face looking at him, away from family and friends around me. I can’t bear the separation, and it’s just been over one hour since I last saw him.

How am I supposed to go on? I need him. I need him so much at my side. He’s always been my strength, support… my pillar. I’m free-falling through the air. I keep telling myself I’ll see him in a year’s time, but it feels so far away, so dim… that it’s not enough to sustain me. I want to see him now, I want him beside me now.

Continued from here.

Ceranda and Faeloth were traveling over the plains in search of a new town to work in, having caused much too many troubles to the last one. Ceranda had used her magic to hide the cumbersome back wings and tail, but had kept her ear wings visible, since they were alone on an empty road. Faeloth loved those, so she didn’t hide them unless it was necessary for interaction with other people.

Ceranda’s head wings twitched suddenly, in a way they never had, right before she felt the fabric of space-time ripple between Faeloth and herself. They were both blasted away from the center, where a bright white light could be seen, blinding them both.

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The flight was 3 hours late in taking off from Antofagasta, but the time went by pretty quickly with my mom. We gained access to the VIP lounge, and were able to check our mail and navigate on the web as well as watch tv in comfy seats.

I’ve always enjoyed plane trips. My favorite part is when it takes off. That instant when the wheels leap from the ground and the acceleration pushes you gently into your seat, and you start to gain altitude. It’s pretty impressive to see the bulk of a commercial airliner heave into the air. Tons of heavy metal, baggage and humans suddenly going airborne and actually flying great distances!

If I evre cease to find that incredible, I’ll know that I’ve lost a very important part of myself. The capacity to be amazed by that type of thing over and over again, makes me certain I still have some creativity left in me.

The rest of the trip was pretty much normal, with the exception of me being unable to eat at all the food they gave me due to my recent operation. Xae was waiting for me at the terminal, in Santiago, and I slept at his place that night.

The next day I spent with him, culminating at the cinema, where we watched ‘Charlie and the Chocolate Factory’. I finally unpacked lasxt night and slept in my own bed for the first time in two weeks. My computer is still at Xae’s, but today I’ll be moving it back to my room.